Sad...

I officially registered Samantha for Kindergarten this morning!!

Crazy shit!

Holding myself accountable

Ok, so I really need to get my shit together. In May of 2008 I joined WW with my mom. It took me a year, but I lost 30 lbs. Not bad! I was 10 lbs. away from my goal weight. Then, life happened. We bought a new house, stress at work, busy busy busy, and I got LAZY! It started with, "OK, I'm not going to work out today, but I will go every day for the rest of the week." Then it was " I'll just have one piece of chocolate cake." It snow balled from there! I am now back up to the weight I was when I started this whole "journey". sigh. I feel yucky. It's not only about how I look though. I just FEEL like crap! When I was eating better and exercising on a regular bases, I felt GREAT! I mean fantastic. I need to get back to that! I think that's why I've been in such a funk lately. (See post below).

So, It's time. I am the only one that can change the way I feel and look. No one else. I am in charge of myself. No one else. It's the getting started that's the hardest. I just need to decide that I'm going to do it, and do it. Come on Jen. You need this.

Sorry for the rant. This is more for me than for anyone else. I just needed to vent and get myself motivated.

In a funk...

I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I don't know what my problem is. I don't have anything to really be upset about, but I am just not happy right now. I have an amazing husband that will do anything for me, and kids that are, for the most part, well behaved, but yet I still find many things to bitch about. I am realizing that I'm one of THOSE wive's/mother's. You know the one. The one that is ALWAYS bitching and complaining. That is the last thing I want to do!!

What is my problem? Do I need to up my meds? Or just get over myself?

I think I need to see a therapist. lol.

I'm in loooove...

See those shoes over there? My new profile pic? Love Love Love them. I must have them, AND they are on sale right now. A late birthday present for myself maybe? What would I wear those with? I'm gonna have to buy a new dress to go with the shoes, and then jewelry. I must have fabulous jewelry to go with my fabulous shoes and fabulous new dress.

See where this is going? I'm starting to understand why Jer has such a problem with me going shopping.

Lord help me.

It's been awhile...

Sorry! A lot has been going on. Nothing major, just normal everyday life. When you have 2 kiddos it gets kind of hectic sometimes. I did meet up with an old friend this weekend. We haven't seen or spoken to each other in about 10 years. She looks exactly the same and is just how I remember her. She is married and has an adorable 8 year old son. He didn't know how to handle my two crazy kiddos. Poor guy!

Anyways, T starts baseball on Saturday. His team is called the Cubs. How cute is that? He will practice 3 days a week. I think it will be good for him. I hope he likes it.

As soon as Manth turns 5 (in June) I will sign her up for swimming again. She is a natural. That's my girl!! The minute she got in the water when she was 2 years old she was in love with the water. The girl has no fear, which is scary at times, but good in some cases.

It was my bday yesterday. I turned 31. woohoo. Didn't do anything exciting. Went to my mom's house for dinner. I'm having my party on Saturday. I'm really excited about it!!!

Well, that's the update. I'll post another blog soon. Hopefully!